Some people have a natural capacity for public speaking. I, on the other hand, do not – at least I don’t think I do. Actually, I’ve never done much public speaking so I’m not completely sure. But, just the thought of it makes me squeamish.
So it may come as a surprise when I tell you that I am now an approved speaker for Stonecroft Ministries.
When I first began sharing my story about my struggle with bulimia a couple years ago, I sensed that the Lord was telling me that a time would come that He would call me to share this testimony in a more public setting. Looks like that time has come. I have my first speaking event next month.
Am I a little nervous? Uh…Yes.
What if I freeze?
What if I forget what to say?
What if they don’t like what I have to say?
However, when I feel the nerves set in, I have a place to go for encouragement. The Bible is full of stories of people who did not let their fear be greater than their faith.
What if Moses gave into fear when the Lord asked him to go before Pharaoh to declare freedom for God’s people?
What if David gave into fear when God called him to face Golliath?
What if Esther gave into fear when God called her to stand before the king?
God’s will would have stood even if these people had chosen not to obey God’s calling – He would have found one would have been courageous to follow His command. But these would have lost their opportunity to watch God use them in amazing ways for His kingdom and His glory. And not just in their own lives, but in a way that would effect generations to come.
Not that I am in any way trying to compare my circumstance with these great Biblical heros, but it shows that God can do great things when we step out in obedience.
I don’t want to be one who shrinks back in the presence of fear. I don’t want to miss out on any opportunity for God to display His power in me. I don’t want to miss out on any opportunity to be used for His glory.
Fear is what keeps us wandering in the desert when we should be taking hold of the promises God has given us.
Fear is what keeps us in the boat when we should be walking on the water.
Fear is what makes us focus on the wind and the waves when we should be focused on Jesus calling us to ‘Come!’.
“Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid.”
Peter said to Him, “Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water.”
And He said, “Come!” And Peter got out of the boat,
and walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
But seeing the wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink,
he cried out, “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and took hold of him,
and *said to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?”
I have no idea what the Lord will do, and I don’t know what doors of opportunity may open after I speak at this event. But, I’ll never know if I don’t step out.
So, here I go! Lifting my foot off the deck, over the side and into the water – confident that God will prove Himself strong in my weakness and cause me to walk among the waves.